I’m sitting here with my laptop looking at a blank screen.
Thoughts are swirling around my head.
Opinions….opinions about church, about home, about parenting, about being a homemaker and a wife and a mother.
Do I share them or not?
There is fear and hesitation.
My thoughts may not always be popular…..the right ones usually aren’t. Not that I’m not saying that my thoughts and opinions are always “right”, but sometimes I fear that that’s why I stick with the safe and fun posts.
The posts that update, but don’t challenge or question. The posts that don’t allow you to see all of me.
Why am I fearful?
Why am I hestitant?
Well, because I am a people pleaser. That’s why.
I want to please you.
You…my readers, my friends, my family, my fellow bloggers….
But does pleasing always mean agreeing with?
I don’t think so.
I hope not.
We are taught that we are unique and valued for who we are. We are told that opinions matter. But is that true if our opinions are different from the most popular opinions?
I’m at a point where I want to make this more….more of me.
Yes, I want to share stories of my three funny kids, I want to show off their pictures, I want to update family and friends, and I want to participate in blog carnivals.
But I also want more.
I want to teach, to motivate, to encourage, to challenge.
I want to be real with you.
I haven’t done much of that lately.
And I’m thinking that it’s time to start.
But now that I’ve sat and stared and feared and hesitated, it’s past my bedtime and starting will have to happen another time….tomorrow perhaps.
LifeAtTheCircus says
Please share girlie… I’d love to be inspired and encouraged and challenged. Looking forward to more! 🙂
Mindy says
I’m right there with you! I have often times felt the same way about my blog – there is fear and hesitation to post what I’m really thinking and feeling. I generally always go the safe way…but I always feel like I only share half the story when I don’t share the rest. I’ve been contemplating a change to my blogging habits as well. I just may be joining you on this new blogging journey! =)
Love and miss you guys!
Min
homegrownstrawberries says
So I am right there with you. I think its normal and I think God Can do so much more with us if we are bold!
Jenny says
I’ve been thinking the same thing lately! Share away!
Luke Holzmann says
You’re entitled to your own incorrect opinion. [laughing]
Seriously, though–just chiming in with everyone else: I love reading the insights of others! In fact, I like the snarky as well as the loving… though I feel more free to share the loving comments than the ones that make me smirk [smile].
~Luke
We are THAT family says
And it’s posts like these that show your heart….and that is never wrong.
Jordan says
Monica,
Don’t hesitate. Don’t be fearful. The truth is that those of us who love you, don’t care if your opinions are agreeable with ours. We love you for who you are. Because you’re different. Because you’re you. I want to know more of you…more of your heart. The real you…because I know that you’re beautiful inside and out!
Erin @ Closing Time says
I wrote a similar post a couple of months ago. For me it is often a struggle to know how much to share, but I definitely want to share more, be real, and offer more substance. I thoroughly enjoy reading your blog (as is and as it will be), and look forward to future posts.
ML in Chicagoland says
I have been reading your blog for over a year now. The times when you have opened up a little have been some of my favorite posts. I look forward to more.
You are a child of The King!