I declare it over and over.
These words of desire that stir within my heart.
“I want more of Him.”
“I want to be more like Him.”
“I want to be full of Jesus.”
I want so to be filled with His Spirit, with His goodness, with His love, with His patience, with His forgiveness, with His mercy, with His wisdom, and with His power.
My futile mind wants all without giving any.
Selfishly my desire is to have that proverbial cake and eat it too.
But this is not to be.
There is no getting without sacrificial, yes, even often painful giving.
To seek all of these desires fulfilled…this wanting to more and more, I must give.
I must become less, giving up my own selfish desires. No, let’s call it exactly what it is…giving up my SIN.
To be filled I must become empty.
I want to be emptied of my selfishness, my insecurities, my anxieties, my control, my hurts, my doubts, my fears.
Giving up those things that my selfish, sinful nature clings to isn’t easy, but, oh, they are so worth it.
“He must increase, but I must decrease.” ~John 3:30
His Holy spirit within me increases until I am wholly full and my selfish spirit decreases until I am completely empty.
All of life is a daily striving to give, to decrease as He increases within.
My heart longs for the day, the coming day when I will meet my savior and He will ultimately complete and fill all of me.
On that day I will finally be empty and yet so very full.
And what a glorious day that will be!
This post is linked to 5 Minute Friday at The Gypsy Mama, where we write for 5 short minutes without editing or overthinking.
This is a wonderful time of writing from my heart that I look forward to each week.
The topic this week was Empty.
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Linda says
Yes! The daily worthwhile struggle! You’ve captured it well.
Barbie says
Oh yes, to empty myself so that I can be completely full of Him and His goodness. It’s a daily surrender, isn’t it?